Just Breathe.....

"AAAAHHHH!!!!!" That just about sums up what I'm feeling right now. It's coming down to the wire for us. Our homestudy is complete, we have just a couple more documents we're waiting on, and then it's up to me how quickly the rest of this gets done.... authentification, certification, documentation, and on...and on... and on!!!!! If any of you are reading this that already have your wee ones at home with you, I know you'll reassure me that one day I'll forget this crazy paper chase, and I'm sure you're right, but right now, my heart races and I literally get short of breath when I think of it all. I'm not sure why I'm even writing this post, because there's no "new news", but I think maybe it's just therapy. I'm praying that we'll actually be finished with the craziness and have our dossier submitted to Holt by the end of February, which means we'll be one HUGE step closer to meeting our little girl!!!!!!!!! Almost daily I get asked the questions, "Do you know who she is?" or "When will you have her?" and almost daily, I answer, "No, not yet.." and "Well, we're not sure, but we're hopeful she'll be home within the next year to 18 months.." to which they reply, "Wow, that long?????" I admit, I feel the same, and right now, I'll be very honest, it feels like a lifetime, because I want her NOW!!!! Hopefully, once all the paperwork is completed and we're just waiting on a referral, maybe it will feel a little closer. For whoever may be reading this, I'm sorry to disappoint, there was nothing very exciting in this post, but believe it or not, I feel a little better. If you're in the same spot that I am, then I'll say a prayer for you tonight as I pray for my own patience to be strengthened! :-)