Desert Song...
I received a call from Holt today, and I could tell immediately by the sad voice on the other end, it wasn't a happy call to say we got approval. We haven't received approval yet from the Thai government, our case hasn't even been presented yet. The social worker handling our case is overworked and there's not enough of her to go around. The latest is that the director of HSF will be meeting with the director of the Thai Adoption Board sometime in the hopefully near future to discuss why the delays have taken place and try to determine an endpoint for our family. I've gone through all of the emotions that you probably think I have... I've been angry, I am confused, I am deeply saddened, but amazingly enough (to me as well), I feel a peace that I can't explain, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt where it's coming from. Don't get me wrong, the emotion is raw and real, and I can't hold back the tears today, they've been flowing consistently since that phone call, but still, my heart feels a peace that is supernatural. I know that my Heavenly Father has a PERFECT plan. It is a plan that no social worker or government official can mess up, it is a plan they may not even know they're being used to carry out, and His plan will prevail, that is my comfort. My heart hurts right now more than I could ever describe in words. I had it in my head that in less than 2 months my baby girl would be in my arms for forever, and now I'm having to accept that it's not going to happen. That feels exactly like you think it feels, only probably worse... but I do know that God is already on the other side of this trial and He's holding our victory and our baby girl!
I've been playing the song below over and over today... we keep PRAYING, we keep TRUSTING, we keep BELIEVING...
posted by Jenn @ 11:32 AM
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2 Comments:
My tears are flowing for you, friend. There is nothing closer to a mama's heart than her baby, and this stupid red tape is keeping you from yours. We grieve and stomp our feet with you, and we also rejoice that you have a God who knows how to comfort his people, and who will give yuo the only peace to be found--one that does not make sense to our earthly minds. Although you'll remember this day as a low-point in your wait, it will pale in comparison to the day your wait ends! AND IT WILL END! Sendig you love, hugs, and prayers.
My heart goes out to you and I can only imagine how difficult this day must be. But keep hope and faith that soon there will come a GOOD DAY and you will hold your sweet baby in your arms forever!! Praying and thinking of you from the other side of the world...
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